Pretty sure I just bombed my math final because I’m on the verge of having a fever. It didn’t help that this guy’s phone went off and whatever the song was was fucking stuck in my head for the next two hours.
We live in an age of depreciation. This extends to a sort of inflation with the usage of words. Every word has lost its value; when we say “amazing”, “terrible”, “depressing”, “love”, “everything”, these words are all taken more casually and no longer mean what they used to. It is the natural effect of a culture of irreverence, where almost nothing is above satire or sarcasm.
But I want to make a change starting with me. I want to reinstate the value of my own words. I’ve never talked too much to begin with, but even more I want to mean everything i say with all I have, or I don’t want to say it. when I say “It is good to see you”, I want the receiver of my words to feel how much I enjoy his company, and that I am not making conversation. When I say “I promise”, I want my promise to have the weight of death. I don’t want to make just noise with my words, but I want each word to represent my heart to the fullest.